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to kids after they go beyond kindergarten. course when we say that we are giving expression to a feminine soul we do not mean that as we emerged from the womb we were already conscious of a desire to wear high heels and artificial eyelashes, or that there was an itty-bitty girl-soul already wiggling her hips anticipating the swinging and the swaying of skirts. If he reads that kind of a meaning into our "girl-within" theory, no wonder he thinks we are stupid.

So before I attempt to refute some of his statements, I am going perhaps to bore some of my TV friends by giving him an idea of what we mean when we speak of "the girl-within".

Admittedly TVism is a rather complex phenomenon. Looking at it from the outside one would see only one fact: a male wearing feminine attire, and in most cases, trying to imitate a woman's gestures, stance, walk, looks and e en her speech peculiar- ities. However, looking at TVism from the inside, getting into the "soul" of the TV (although I know I should say "mind" or "psyche"), what do we find? What forces, and urges are there inside triggering the appearance of this male body framed in feminine attire? Obviously it is not one single desire, but rather a combination of several urges of greater or lesser intensity. Some quite vivid on the conscious level of the TV. Others deeply buried somewhere in the subconscious. We can identify them only through years of constant self-analysis and observation of other TV's in multiple situations. Some of them are hard to put into words since they are seldom neatly isolated from other related urges. Most of the time they tend to blend and fuse into one another. So I'll try to list them, knowing that there are others that must have escaped me. These are some of the most common ones. They are listed in no particular order of importance or of contrib- utions to the over-all transvestic pattern.

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